Let the guilt go....

Yes, that's a Korn song.

It has in fact, turned out to be one of those weeks.  I think I've been upset over something every single day!  I think I'm just ready to get some stuff behind me.  I've always been one to prefer getting something over with and out of the way, so anything that goes this painfully slow just realllllly irritates me....and it makes me even more irritated that I not only get to do this on the home front, but now on the car front.  I still have no regrets, and even with all the junk this week, it's been so nice to walk outside and go look out over the Intracoastal, or drive by the beach and feel the cooler air blow in the windows.....I don't feel "homesick" in the sense that I miss our old house, because I don't.  I do feel "homesick" over my loved ones up there.  I'll feel better in a couple of weeks when we go visit--it's just still part of getting adjusted to living somewhere so new.  I do have friends now, and I really like the few I've made.  They make me feel more settled in, and it validates how we've established ourselves here and that this is our new home. 

I don't like feeling like I've hurt or disappointed any of the people I care about by moving here.  Mom says I need to stop feeling guilty all everything.  I do tend to feel guilt over a lot of things that don't really merit it.  If I go to dinner with Terry and then decline to do something else over money, I feel guilty.  If I decline doing anything in general, I feel guilty.  To this day, I still feel guilty about a facebook disagreement 2 years ago that never even got heated.  How do you let those feelings go?  I've never been good at it, and then I often over-compensate for whatever wrong I've committed until I end up spreading myself too thin or getting my feelings hurt when it's not recognized.  Is this some weird only child thing???  Whatever it is, I need to work on it. 

Next goal.

In the meantime, it's coming up a storm, so I'm going to go enjoy that!